I'm a week into the month and it's been a rollercoaster ride. Not that I'm surprised, but some surprises popped up, changing my plans of what gets attended to this month, and changing the degree to which I'm meeting some of my challenges.
Still, I've managed to figure out that nourishing myself for this month means making sure that a fresh fruit or vegetable is included in every meal, and that it's realistic to add my bodytalk practice 3 times/ week and qigong 2 days/ week on top of what I've been doing. Together, these support my overall goal of increasing my energy and cleansing myself. My physical therapist has me focusing on my body mechanics, which feels like a major chore (every time I sat or stand, pick something up, bend over, get in & out of a car. A tall order for a busy mom who waitresses!) but I'm keeping my eye on the prize - feeling good in my body.
The rollercoaster has reminded me how critical it is to be consciously aware of feeling everything I feel, the good, the bad, and the ugly. Otherwise they throw me off and shut me down. But I keep coming back to basics, and ended up trying 2 new great recipes for Easter and rallying my family up to the mountain for last day festivities. In spite of the rollercoaster of emotions I had throughout the weekend, it ended up being a great Easter. And recognizing and acknowledging those emotions allowed me to wake up this morning and and make some decisions about what my priorities are in the coming weeks.
One thing I'm noticing, my list of things I do to support myself - going for walks, taking my vitamins, my gratitude journal, my exercises and practices - is transforming from a to-do list to a touchstone. I began writing them down at the bottom of the page in my daily calendar, and it's bringing me a sense of accomplishment. My days, which seem like they're going in 18 different directions, feel like they have a sense of being grounded as I incorporate these things throughout my day and write them down. Even when I feel like everything is in flux and I don't know what's going to happen in my life, I feel like I did something that matters to me. And the days that these things happen are days that have more smiles and joy.
